I haven’t been around in a really long time and feel that you’re the only thing that I can use to alleviate the stresses I’ve been feeling in the past year.
I got married last year and thought “Yay! Finally my lifelong dream will come true and I can finally experience the joy of pregnancy and being a mother!”. We only started trying around 3-4 months ago and I know I shouldn’t worry too much about it right now, but there are many things plaguing my mind… which will obviously not help the situation any.
You see, I’m 33.
I only get my period once every 3 months.
I’m a smoker. And I drink.
All of these things mean that my chances of having a child are soon to be close-to-none.
So what do I do?
Firstly, people telling me not to stress as that’s a major contributing factor in infertility... thanks. Now that you’ve told me to stop, I can stop. Wow. That’s easy to do.
Secondly, I need to stop smoking. Not just for the kid factor, but in general as well. It’s not good and I need to stop. I know. I really need to. I will. I promise.
Thirdly, all these reports on the declining ability to fall pregnant in your 30’s doesn’t help.
I don’t know now if I’ll ever be able to have a kid (really, if women only have a chance of falling pregnant once every 3 months when ovulating 12 times a year, what are my chances when evidently I’m only ovulating 4 times a year?!).
It’s the most heartbreaking thought.
It really is.
So to all those people who keep asking when I’m going to have a kid and I’d better hurry up and do it now before it’s too late… please don’t. I have enough of my own issues about this. I don’t need you adding to it.